Materi Kuliah

Tak terasa Semester I telah berlalu, sekarang udah semester II deh, senangnya, meski IPK ga begitu besar sih :'), tapi setidaknya aku sudah berusaha untuk melanjutkannya sampai tamat dan siap menjalankan profesi sebagai bidan yang cermat dan mandiri :)

Berikut adalah materi kuliah yang harus ku tempuh di semester ini :

1.  Pembentukan karakter (2 SKS)
2.  Komunikasi dan konseling dalam praktik kebidanan (3 SKS)
3.  Keterampilan dasar kebidanan II(3SKS)
4.  Etikolegal dalam praktik kebidanan (4 SKS)
5.  Ilmu kesehatan masyarakat (4 SKS)
6.  Metode penelitian dan statistik dasar (3 SKS)
7.  Mutu layanan kebidanan dan kebijakan kesehatan (3 SKS)

Dengan 7 mata kuliah yang total SKSnya 22 semoga aja aku makin giat belajar biar sukses dan mampu menjadi bidan yang berhasil.

Ganbatte kudasai ^^

Nyesek itu...

Nyesek itu ketika kamu merasa sangat kesepian, tak ada cerita yang didengar bahkan tak ada orang yang mendengar ceritamu. Aku selalu iri dengan orang-orang itu. Mereka yang selalu mempunyai seseorang yang selalu siap mendengar apapun cerita yang akan mereka sampaikan. selalu ada yang sanggup menemani mereka dikala sepi, dan selalu ada untuk mereka kapanpun mereka butuhkan.
mungkin gak akan pernah ada yang menyadari betapa seringnya aku menangis setiap malam. betapa seringnya aku termenung sendirian memikirkan hal0hal itu. dan betapa seringnya aku ingin menyerah pada hidupku.

Nyoba

Lagi coba-coba

Rasa kesalku

Paling kesel lo da orang yang ngomongin kita di belakang kita. Itulah yang terjadi hari ini.

Ada seorang guru yang ngomongin kelas q dan itu pun ngomonginnya di kelas lain. Seharusnya kalau ngerasa gak seneng ma kelasku ya ngomong aja langsung di kelas, masak ngomonginnya di kelas lain sih, gimana kita mau berubah n tau permasalahannya kalau nggak diberitahu apa permasalahan kita secara langsung...

Aku bener2 kesel ma tu guru. Aku sadar koq seharusnya sebagai siswa kita ga boleh berpikiran buruk tentang guru kita. Tapi mau gimana lagi, sakit hatiku telah mengalahkan pikiran itu.

Aku lebih bisa menerima jika guru itu memberitahu apa kesalahan kelasku, bukan malah nyindir2 kelasku di kelas lain. Apa coba kesan kelas lain terhadap kelasku, gak banget kan?

Apa sih susahnya ngomong langsung, masak setelah bertahun-tahun jadi guru sampai sekarang masih gak punya keberanian untuk menasehati muridnya sih? Masak guru gak punya wibawa di depan muridnya sih? Kalau begitu gimana muridnya mau hormat sama gurunya kalau gurunya kayak begitu?

Hah, aku sangat sebel sama gurunya. Apa lagi besok gurunya ngajar. Gak tau deh gimana sikap temen-temen besok, semoga aja atmosfernya gak seburuk perasaanku saat ini....

rasa takutku

        Maybe aku termasuk tipe orang yang takut melakukan sesuatu atau pun mencoba sesuatu karena takut gagal. Sesungguhnya aku pun tak tahu kenapa aku jadi kayak gini. Mungkin aku terlalu naif jadi orang, tapi aku gak bisa menghilangkan rasa takut itu. Aku pun cenderung memilih untuk melarikan diri dari semua itu, namun seperti bayangan, mereka selalu menghantuiku kemana pun aku pergi. Aku benci diriku yang seperti ini. Ingin rasanya aku mencoba untuk berubah, namun setiap keinginan itu muncul, rasa takut itu kembali menghentikan langkahku untuk mencobanya. Aku takut akan gagal dan mengecewakan orang-oang yang berharap aku akan mampu dan sukses melakukannya. Aku sering mengejek adikku tentang rasa takutnya untuk pergi ke tempat gelap sendirian, tapi sesungguhnya akulah yang patut diejek karena aku justru takut untuk melangkah maju. Mungkin saat ini orang-orang bisa melihat kalau aku masih berada di garis start dan belum beranjak sesenti pun.

        Apa lagi hari ini ada pengumuman tenta sebuah lomba. Aku takut mengajukan diriku untuk terlibat pada lomba itu, padahal sejuurnya aku sangat ingin mengikutinya. Aku pernah mengikutinya tahun lalu dan ternyata aku gagal dan sangat mengecewakan guru-guru yang menemaniku. Meskipun mereka diam saja, tapi aku bisa melihatnya dari sorot mata mereka. Aku benar-benar merasa kecewa karena aku tak hanya gagal tapi aku merasa telah mengecewakan orang-orang yang telah membantuku dan menjelekkan nama sekolahku. Dan saat ini aku sangat takut akan mengulangi kesalahan itu lagi. Aku sangat bingung, apa yang harus aku lakukan?

     Dan mungkin aku sungguh bodoh dalam menghadapi masalah ini. Dan aku pun sering mendengar kata-kata "cobalah dulu, gagal hanyalah keberhasilan yang tertunda", namun aku tak pernah dapat memahami maksudnya. Aku terlalu takut untuk gagal lagi. aku takut semua ketakutanku akan abadi selamanya daam diriku ini.....

kata yang tak terucap

Entah mengapa, aku tak bisa lepas darinya. Aku selalu menatapnya tanpa bisa berkata apapun. Kejadian ini terus berlangsung dari saat itu.

Aku hanyalah seorang gadis SMA yang biasa-biasa saja. Sampai suatu hari aku tak sengaja besenggolan dengannya.

“hai, kamu gak apa-apa kan?”, tanyanya padaku.

“iya, gak pa-pa kok”, jawabku seraya berlalu darinya.

Suatu hari aku mengetahui nama orang itu. Dia bernama Yudi, anak IS 2. Dia termasuk siswa yang aktif di kelas nya. Entah mengapa dia selalu ada dalam benakku, disaat makan, tidur, hingga saat jam pelajaran di kelas.

Tak ku sangka aku bertemu lagi dengannya di jam olahraga. Aku tak menyangka ia menghampiriku. Sejak saat itu kami pun mulai dekat. Kami pun sering berolahraga bersama. Suatu ketika aku merasa sangat lelah dan duduk di salah satu bangku di lapangan. Semuanya pun mendadak kabur dalam penglihatanku.

Sesampainya di rumah sakit, dokter memeriksaku. Tak ada orang tua yang menemaniku karena mereka sangatlah sibuk.Hanya Yudi yang ada di sampingku.

Suatu hari aku janjian bertemu dengan Yudi di sebuah taman.

“Yudi kamu sibuk gak? “, telponku.

“gak kok, kenapa?”

“ehm, aku mau ngomongin sesuatu sama kamu. Ku tunggu jam 4 di taman ya”

“oke”

Aku pun bergegas menuju taman. Tak lupa aku membawa surat yang ingin ku berikan padanya. Di dalamnya berisi semua curahan hatiku padanya selama ini. Sesampainya di taman masih sepi tak ada orang. Aku menunggu kedatangannya dengan sabar.

15 menit berlalu, akhirnya aku melihatnya datang. Aku pun langsung berdiri menghampirinya, namun tiba – tiba saja pandanganku kabur.

Keesokan harinya, semua orang mulai dari guru, teman-teman, saudara dekat, serta orang tua ku berkumpul di rumahku. Mereka terlihat sangat sedih. Terutama Yudi dan kedua orang tuaku.

Aku pun hanya dapat menyaksikan mereka tanpa bisa berkata ataupun berbuat sesuatu. Dari sini, aku dapat menyaksikan beberapa karangan bunga dari kolega orang tua serta dari sekolahku.

Ku lihat, Yudi membaca lagi surat yang ku bawa waktu itu.

Dear Yudi,
Maaf telah merepotkanmu dengan menyuruhmu untuk datang kesini. Aku hanya ingin menyampaikan bahwa aku sayang banget sama kamu. Tapi, mungkin aku gak bisa sama- sama ma kamu karena aku takut waktu ku sudah tak banyak lagi. Saat itu dokter telah memberitahu aku bahwa hidupku tak lama lagi. Aku menderita kanker otak stadium 3. Aku tak ingin kamu mengetahuinya dari orang lain sebelum aku memberitahumu. Kamulah orang pertama yang bias membuka hatiku, dan dapat aku percaya. Aku harap kamu akan baik – baik saja.
Karin

Itulah surat yang ku buat untuknya. Sekarang, mereka telah menjemputku. Selamat tinggal Yudi. Selamat tinggal ayah. Selamat tinggal ibu. Ku harap kalian smua akan baik – baik saja.

My Little Piggie Doll chapter 1

“Pig guy pig guy, you are a pig guy. Hahaha...”, said all the cllasmate’s Karin..
“You are very cruel. You damage my little piggie doll. I hate you all..”, said Karin with cry after she said all about her mind.
She run to home and feel very very hurt about that. ‘what my wrong? I’m just like this pig doll. Is wrong if I bring it ehenever I go? And why they broke my doll?’, mind her.
She run along the street and hit agains a boy and that boy said, “hey, you. Can you see I walk there?” , said him.
“ouch, sory”, reply her and she stand up and want to run again, but that boy held her arm and ask, “hey, why do you cry? Don’t be crybaby guy, you are looking so ugly..”
Karin look at him surprised with angry and ask, “What do you mean? You want to mock me like they, hah?”
“no, I don’t. I mean that you look very cute like your little piggie dol. So,don’t cry again and keep your smile. Ok?”
“what do you know about me? You,re not me. I just bring this doll wherever I go but they mock me. Can you feel like me?”, said her.
They quite silent. Then, he said, “I don’t know about your problem, but I just want to help. I just hope that you can be fine. So, now I must to go. Keep yourself to be fine”, said him.
Karin just can be quite and look at him when he walk away from her. She don’t know about her feel but, she feel so comfort when hear his word. She don’t know who is he, but she can’t do anything.

love story

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes and the flashback starts
I’m standing there on a balcony in summer air
See the lights, see the party, the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know

That you were Romeo
You were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don’t go

And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I‘ll be the princess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet ‘cause we’re dead if they knew
So close your eyes, escape this town for a little while
Oh, oh, oh
‘cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don’t go

And I said
Romeo, take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting, all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I ‘ll be the princess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

Romeo, save me, they’re trying to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it’s real
Don’t be afraid, we’ll make it out of this mess
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes

Oh oh
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town
And I said
Romeo save me, I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think
He knelt to the ground and he pulled out a ring
And said

Marry me, Juliet, you’ll never have to be alone
I love you and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad, you’ll pick out a white dress
It’s a love story, baby, just say yes
Oh, oh, oh, oh
‘cause we were both young when I first saw you

this is me

I’ve always been the kind of girl
That hide my face
So afraid to tell the world
What I’ve got to say
But I have this dream
Right inside of me
I’m gonna let it show
It’s time to let you know
To let you know
This is real
This is me
I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be now
Gonna let light shine on me
Now I’ve found who I am
There’s no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me
Do you know what it’s like
To feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
Where you’re the shining star
Even though it seems
Like it’s too far away
I’ve got to believe in myself
It’s the only way
This is real
This is me
I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be now
Gonna let light shine on me
Now I’ve found who I am
There’s no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me
You’re the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I’m singing
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You’re the missing piece I need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
This is real
This is me
I’m exactly where I’m supposed to be now
Gonna let light shine on me
Now I’ve found who I am
There’s no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me
You’re the missing piece i need
The song inside of me
This is me
You’re the voice I hear inside my head
The reason that I’m singing
Now I’ve found who I am
There’s no way to hold it in
No more hiding who I wanna be
This is me

keep holding on

You’re not alone
Together we stand
I’ll be by your side
You know I’ll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There’s no place to go
You know I won’t give in
Know I won’t give in

Keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through
Just, stay strong
Cause you know I’m here for you
I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
(Nothing you could say)
Nothing you could do
(nothing you could do)
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it’s too late
This could all disappear
And it comes to an end
With you by my side
I will figh and defend (ah ah)
I’ll figh and defend (ah ah)
Yeah yeh

Keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through
Just, stay strong
Cause you know I’m here for you
I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
(Nothing you could say)
Nothing you could do
(nothing you could do)
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through

Hear me when I say
When I say I believe
Nothing’s gonna change
Nothing’s gonna change trust in me
Whatever’s meant to be
Will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah...
La da da da, la da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through
Just, stay strong
Cause you know I’m here for you
I’m here for you
There’s nothing you could say
(Nothing you could say)
Nothing you could do
(nothing you could do)
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through

Ah, ah
Ah, ah

There’s nothing you could say
(Nothing you could say)
Nothing you could do
(nothing you could do)
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through

the show

I’m just a little bit chaught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go
I can’t do it alone
(I’ve tired)
And I don’t know why

Slow it down
Make it stop
Or else my heart is going to pop
‘cuz it’s too much
Yeah, it’s a lot

To be something I’m not
I’m a fool
Out of love
‘cuz I just can’t get enough

I’m just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And the love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go
I can’t do it alone
(I’ve tried)
And I don’t know why
I am just a little girl
Lost in the moment
I’m so scared
But I don’t show it
I can’t figure it out
It’s bringing me down
I know
I’ve got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

The sun is hot
In the sky
Just like a giant spotlight
The people follow the sign
And synchronize in time
It’s a joke
Nobody knows
They’ve got a ticket to that show

Yeah
I’m just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go
I can’t do it alone
(I’ve tired)
And I don’t know why

I am just a little girl
Lost in the moment
I’m so scared
But I don’t show it
I can’t figure it out
It’s bringing me down
I know
I’ve got to let it go
And just enjoy the show
Oh oh
Just enjoy the show
Oh oh

I’m just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don’t know where to go
I can’t do it alone
(I’ve tried)
And I don’t know why

I am just a little girl
Lost in the moment
I’m so scared
But I don’t show it
I can’t figure it out
It’s bringing me down
I know
I’ve got to let it go
And just enjoy the show

Dum de dum
Dudum de dum
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show
I want my money back
I want my money back
I want my money back
Just enjoy the show

knock knock

when you're gone

I always need time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years
when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you


we were made for each other
out here forever
i know we were
yeah yeah
all i wanted was for you to know
everything i do i give my heart and soul
i can hardly breathe i need to feel you here with me

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

anything I'm not

I will never be
I will never be tall
No
And I will never be
Never ever
Be sure of it all
Oh
Why is the world
So cruel to me
When all
All I never wanna be
Is anything I’m not

Gimme a break
A little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free
I wanna be new
And different
Anything I’m not
I’m not

I will never be
I will never be you
No
I will always be
I will always be me
That I know
But oh
Even though
I’m happy being me
I want to get away
From all
This harshwy reality
Oh

Gimme a break
A little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free
I wanna be new
And different
Anything I’m not
Yeah

Gimme a break
A little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free
I wanna be new
And different
Anything I’m not
Anything I’m not
Oh
Anything I’m not

Gimme a break
A little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free
I wanna be new
And different
Anything I’m not
Yeah

Gimme a break
A little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free
I wanna be new
And different
Anything I’m not
Anything I’m not
Anything I’m not
Anything I’m not
Anything I’m not

iseng doang

geetoh deh

cinta kasihmu

Cinta Kasihmu


Karena Mu
Aku ada
Dengan Mu
Kujalani hidup ini
Dan tanpa Mu
Ku tak bisa berdiri

Kau menemaniku
Memberi kasih
Memberi sayang
Di setiap tempat
Yang kulalui

Cinta Mu
Memberiku kekuatan
Kasih Mu
Memberiku pegangan

Bersama Mu
Kujalani hidup ini
Seindah cinta kasih Mu

hanya satu

Hanya Satu

Hanya satu pintaku

Tuk melihatnya

Tertawa dan tersenyum

Di luar bayang-bayang kegelapan

Sebelumnya

Hidupnya penuh keceriaan

Penuh impian

Penuh warna

Tapi kini

Hanya selang dan kabel

Yang menopang

Detik-detik kehidupannya

Kumohon

Kembalikan dia seperti dulu

Yang dapat menatap masa depan

Dengan penuh keceriaan

selalu didekatmu

Selalu Didekat Mu

Kini.....

Baru kusadari

Jalan yang kutempuh

Langkah yang kupilih

Tak lepas dari pantauan Mu

Saat ini

Aku tersesat

Kebingungan

Di tengah derasnya

Arus hidupku

Maka……

Tuntun langkahku

Tunjukkan jalan Mu

Raih hatiku

Agar selalu didekat Mu